For the most part I’ve tried to keep my posts on here either,
informative, creative or light. I think
on the whole I’ve managed to succeed with that.
I’ve avoided relating the most extreme examples of BPD in my life.
The thing is that isn’t a real picture of BPD. The intense emotions I experience and inner
distress I live with are horrible. I have
placed a lot of hope in my ability to make DBT work for me. Today I seriously doubt if I can do it. DBT is very structured and I’m not used to
it. I want to kick against it – I want
to throw in the towel – a great big wet, sweaty bath sheet at that! I want to have a tantrum and scream at the
DBT team. Why? Because I’m useless at it!
Then, having done that, I want to carry on with DBT as if
nothing had happened, and, since life’s not like that, I will have to pick up that
smelly old towel and throw it in all over again!
